DUBLIN, Calif—Scrawled on the inside of Barbara Scrivner’s left arm is a primitive prison tattoo that says “Time Flies.”
If only that were the case.
For Scrivner, time has crawled, it’s dawdled, and on bad days, it’s felt like it’s stood completely still. She was 27 years old when she started serving a 30-year sentence in federal prison for selling a few ounces of methamphetamine. Now, 20 years later, she feels like she’s still living in the early ’90s—she’s never seen or touched a cellphone, she still listens to her favorite band, the Scorpions, and she carefully coats her eyelids in electric blue eye shadow in the morning.
It’s out there, outside of prison, where time flies.
On a sunny afternoon at a federal prison outside San Francisco last month, Scrivner nervously clutched a manila envelope full of photos of herself and her daughter that she keeps in her cell. As she displays the pictures, Scrivner’s daughter Alannah, who was just 2 years old when her mom was put away, changes from a redheaded, freckled young kid to a sullen teen to a struggling young mom. Scrivner changes in the photos, too. At first she’s a plump-cheeked beauty with chestnut-brown hair, then she’s a bleached-blonde woman in her early 30s, before becoming increasingly gaunt as the years grind on.
Happy Birthday Sofia. 1 year ago I had a kidney transplant at the University of Alabama in Birmingham. The staff was excellent.
I had been on dialysis for 12 years before the surgery. Although they called my disease of the kidney End Stage Renal Disease it was not the end stage for me. I continued to live and experience life without really missing a beat. I traveled to Bahamas, Mexico and across the US. I continued as the founder and exec director of Woman2Woman Empowerment . My husband and I have moved to 3 states. I continued to do dialysis in those states. Some good places ,some not so good.
I am so thankful for the person who donated their kidney by filling out the form on the license and informing their family. I am so thankful for the Dr.who performed my surgery at UAB. I am grateful and thankful to God for blessing me with Grace to make it through the 12 years of dialysis. dialysis is not an easy experience. It is painful if you do hemo dialysis. You are subjected to being stuck with large needles every other day. It is no cake walk. Along with the failure of your kidney can come other issues. These other issues can cause you not to be a good recipient for a transplant. I thank God that through the 12 years I was able to stay reasonably healthy and a viable candidate.
I never allowed the fact that I was on dialysis to rule my life. I was aware that God was not surprised my diagnosis of kidney failure. If God was not surprised then I needed to keep moving forward. I was not one to continually say ‘I don’t receive this”. I did not deny the fact that I was on dialysis. I did not miss treatment. I went to treatment as directed. I believed that God was aware of my situation and would heal, recreate or replace at his discretion. So I continued for the 12 years until I was called by UAB.
I would like to say thank you to the family of the person who ‘s kidney I received. Sofia(my new kidney’s name) is functioning great. Today is Sofia’s 1st birthday in my body. I celebrate the great job that she does and pray that she continues to do so.
If you are experiencing kidney failure or any other health issue, don’t lose faith or heart. Continue to live and learn and love. Life is an adventure and try to find something to smile about every day.
If you’re reading this blog, chances are you are on the verge of making a major life change. Rentering the job market after an absence can be terrifying. And changing careers can seem impossible.
First let me tell you that you’re not alone. There are a lot of us out there. People primed to return to work, yet afraid of the unknown.
Over the past year, I’ve talked to a lot of men and women who are ready to work but not sure how to get back in the game.
I’ve talked to stay-at-home moms wanting to return to work, divorcees who suddenly found themselves fighting to survive, people who have been laid off, people who have just received their green card and work visa and are not sure where to begin, and people who decided to change professions.
Like all of the people I’ve talked to, you’ve probably got…
When I first thought about getting back into the workplace, I felt overwhelmed. Things had changed so much since I last worked in a company. There were so many things I didn’t know. So many people already in the workforce who seemed smarter and younger.
I spent hours spinning my wheels, trying figure out where to begin. The internet was flooded with articles and books on the topic. I probably could have spent months sifting through it all only to find myself more lost and overwhelmed than ever – and probably back where I had started. What I wanted was clear direction.
Then I met someone who changed the way I thought.
A friend introduced me to a career coach who had successfully helped dozens of clients of all ages and backgrounds reenter the workforce. It was definitely worth…
LG Logan and Roxanne Harris at B-ham airport Olivia ,LG Roxanne
I want to share with you how God is always working on our behalf and for our good. Jeremiah 29:11″-For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”
Earlier this year my hubby and I went to wedding in Chicago. Normally when we fly we get a non stop flight so we don’t take a chance of missing a flight. This time my hubby mistakenly book a connecting flight. We had to change planes in St Louis. We only had time for a potty break and then get new flight. We got on our flight and took a seat in the front row. The plane was full. So while we were waiting for the other passengers to board an older gentleman went past us to go to the restroom in the front.
When he returned back I looked up at him. He looked just like my father who passed in 1975. A little history. My father was married previously before he married my mom. He had the first set of kids which were almost 20+ years older than we were. You see my mom and dad were 20 years apart in age. What can I say Mr. Lester Logan had it going on. Any way. So we had never been really close to our older sisters and brothers. (I never call them step because I don’t like that terminology). We had lost touch over the years. We spoke occasionally on the phone but had not seen each other in some time.
When this gentleman walked past I asked what his name was. He looked so much like my dad-Lester Logan. The man answered that his name was Logan. I said immediately I am your sister. We have the same dad. He looked confused and surprised. He was all the way in the back of the plane and we were in the front. We waited for Him by the baggage claim. we began to talk and YES it was my brother. Can you believe that. so many things had to line up for us to be together in that baggage claim. You can call it luck or coincidence if you like. But I call it the hand of God moving in my life to help complete me.
We had recently moved to Tuscaloosa Alabama following the instructions of the Lord. I found out that he was moving back from years of living in California. We now live less than 2 hours away. 2 Hours.
My sister(she lives outside of Atlanta) and I traveled to MS this past weekend for a family picnic that my big brother and relatives were having. We got to meet family and reconnect to people we met when we were kids. We also had a chance to meet new cuzins and relatives and their families. All I can say is WOW. I am so thankful for this chance to reconnect. 2 hours away. They just might get tired of me. I plan on going again in September. I just returned from a family reunion with my moms kids in July and now one in August. God is so good . ♥ He knows how to do and what to do. Follow his lead thru storm and dark into the light.
Its been a while since I have posted . I have been traveling , visiting family and friends. Just recently we traveled to Chicago to attend my husbands nephews wedding. He is an EthiopianHebrew. I have never attended a Jewish wedding so needless to say I was excited to attend. I looked some video up on YouTube. Found them very interesting . I must admit I was interested to see what a Jewish wedding with a African-American flair would be.
Well the wedding was beautiful. I mean really meaningful and beautiful. There we some similarities with a “regular wedding”. They had brides maids and grooms man, flower girls and ring bearers. The rabbi explained explains some things before the wedding begins. The bride and groom stand under a canopy called a chuppah. They are the only ones under the chuppah. The rabbi says to them both ” There is no one under here but you two then that is the only ones that need to be involved in your marriage. You are his best friend and he is yours, Now that is some good advice.
Now here is the beautiful part. The bride circles the groom and says 7 times, I will obey. Now I know you 21st century women are saying -OBEY. Yes obey . Maybe that is why you are still single. But that subject is for another blog post. Any way now the groom circles the bride 7 times and says the following. I will work for you. I will support you. I will honor you. I will love you. I will care for you. I will
As I sat in the audience I was thinking if the rabbi keeps this up all these women are going to be looking for a Jewish hubby. All the women in the audience were in agreeance by the sounds I heard . The rabbi says to the bride that there will be no do you have your half od the rent. The rent and bills are the groom’s responsibility.
They exchange rings. The Rabbi ask each of them if the rings belong to them. Because who ever owns the ring will be who the bride belongs to. The drink a glass of wine to show that their lips are cleansed . The rabbi says as you have pressed your lips on the glass your lips now should not press another’s but each others. How beautiful. everything was explained and had a meaning. They both then sighed a marital contract in front of the congregation. He did tell them that their friend were not qualified to give them counsel on marriage. The bride and groom should seek some one who has been married for a good amount of time like 40-50 years.
There was one hiccup. The bride fainted because of the heat and the fact she had not eaten all day. The rabbi says jokingly bring a chair she can’t get out of it now by fainting. I learned some new things at a wedding. I erased some misunderstandings and had a new appreciation for the words that were said at the ceremony.
As the bride was in the chair the groom kissed his bride. He stepped on the glass and the congregation yelled Mozel Tov. Blessings and congratulation to Mr. and Mrs. Anthony Bullock. It was truly beautiful. A young couple sealing and celebrating their love by making a commitment before God and congregation. We had a great time spending time with family and friends.
I had an opportunity to take Sophia(my new kidney) to meet her Texas family. I was able to stay and visit with friends and family for a whole week. Every one at Chosen Generation Fellowship was excited to meet and greet her. They were so thankful for the blessing from God and my health. I had a fantastic time visiting with Mother Nell Hines and Jessica Moore. We laughed until my sides were hurting. It was so good to just relax with family and remember about old times, good and not so good. . I needed that. Sometimes we can get so caught up in life’s busy work that we don’t take the time to relax and enjoy the day that God has given. laughter is good for the soul. Try it.
The photo is when I was feeling and looking fabulously 52. No shoes, just feeling free and grateful to God. If you are happy and you know twirl around. I am having a great time being 52.
I thought I was going to relax and not to work. I found out that God had other plans. I was reacquainted with a student of mine from our Empowering Choicesclass in Texas. She looked so good I almost did not recognize her. She is in Culinary school and making a good life for her and her children. God is the God of as many chances that you need. Seeing her gave me motivation to know that what God has started in Woman2Woman Empowerment,He will finish and perfect it until the day of His return. I was able to minister to others and to be blessed as well. Must remember that you are never “Off the Clock” when you work for God. He uses every thing and situation in our lives for His glory.
I missed my hubby. I was so glad to get home to him. I miss my Texas family also. Always good to visit but even better to come home to hubby.
To all God’s people who are stepping out the boat in 2013,keep looking at Jesus. Don’t let the waves distract you nor the noisy winds. If Jesus is telling you to come, then go. Be encouraged and energized. The best is yet to come.